Not going very well

A few days ago, I set myself some targets for this week and they're not going very well. The first failure was my attempt to give up pleasure for a week (if you know what I mean). That target got blown a few hours after I made it - just like a New Years Resolution :) I'm too much of a perve for porn!

The second target was get more exercise. I weighed myself on Monday and found I was 2 lbs lighter than when I last weighed myself a few weeks ago. Unfortunately, I think the run I had on Saturday has taken too much out of me. I tried to go for a run this afternoon, but really didn't get very far at all before I had to give up. Unfortunately I don't think I can blame everything on the fact I had a big bag on my back full with my work gear and coat. Maybe trying to run 3 times a week was too much of an ambition at first.

At this point, I'm feeling pretty down, so I probably need to remind myself of my goal. So here's a pic of one of my favourite girls in the world - Sarina Valentine

Challenges for the week ahead

In my last blog, I talked about my achievements last week. This blog aims to list the challenges for the week ahead.

The first objective this week is to get into the habit of exercising. I'm never going to have the sissy body I desire (or that anyone else will desire) with my big belly. I'm not hugely overweight, but I do need to lose a couple of stone, so the task is to go for a jog at least 3 times a week. The first attempt was this morning and I managed to walk/run about 2.5 miles with the first 0.8 mile jogging and the rest alternating between walking and jogging. By next weekend, I hope to be able to jog that first whole mile. The weight will not drop off overnight (unfortunately), but I have to keep in mind the body that I want.

The second objective is to follow some more for the sissy training whilst keeping up with everything I've learned so far. Rule number one for this week is no wanking :( This is going to be hard (no pun intended). After making my new purchases yesterday, I spent the evening catching up on all the 'educational' sites. I got so turned on by a LezDom that I just can't help myself at times. I imagine myself being the victim, being stripped of my clothing, my lingerie and being restrained and then used like a piece of meat.

I'm also going to start ex-foliating to get my skin nice and soft and smooth. I've bought some ex-foliating gloves and some lotion.

That should be enough challenges for the week. I'll let you know how it's going.

A review of the week

It's now been about a week since I started my journey so I thought I'd summarise my week and look forward to my next challenges (see next blog). Firstly, my Sissy's Anonymous declaration: It's been a week since I last wore man pants.

My tasks this week were:
- To wear panties for at least an hour a day. This has been passed easily as I've been wearing them 24 hrs a day.
- To buy a flavoured lip balm and apply it like a lipstick. This was bought today and has had its first application.
- To sleep with it all tucked back. This has also been achieved this week. It's also been tucked back whenever it got excited - which is quite a lot given I've been wearing panties.

What else has happened this week?

Well, I bought my first school uniform and some new undies and have added pictures of the uniform to my imagefap page. Here's a preview of the uniform if you want to look further

Preparation

I'm hoping to buy myself a nice little school uniform in a couple of days time (see the pic) so thought I'd prepare myself by shaving my chest. I've never done this before and it definitely feels a bit strange. I was surprised that my little clit was getting hard as I was rubbing lotion into my chest. It's not quite complete yet though so I'll have to catch all those bits I missed tomorrow. I'm hoping that my Bras and Basques I wear wont itch either now, but will have to get back to you on if that's the case next time. I hope to take some pics of me in the uniform for everyone's enjoyment when I have it.

P.S. In a Sissys Anonymous type moment, it has been 5 days since I've worn man pants :)

The first day at work

Today was a bit of a milestone. I wore my panties to work. I've worn them before, but always underneath man pants so no-one would know. I've had this job for 18 yrs and have known some of my colleagues for almost as long. I've always chickened out from only wearing my panties under my trousers before. The trousers are quite thin and I've been worried it would be obvious that I was wearing a g-string under them.

Today I took the plunge and have been wearing panties all day. No-one noticed - or if they did, nothing was said.

I've now not worn man pants since Friday. :)

A Close Call

Like a good little sissy, I decided to wear a nice pair of panties and a pair of hold-up stockings today underneath my jeans so no-one would know. This was very nearly a big mistake that could have outed me before I am anywhere near ready.

I had to go to the shops which are about a 20-25 minute walk away. I need to lose a few pounds, so rather than drive, I chose to walk. Getting there was fine, I picked up what was needed and started to head home. It was at this point that I realised the hold-ups had started to slip down. They'd never done this before and I've no idea if the slip was caused by the moisturiser I rubbed into my legs after shaving this morning, or by the sweat from the walk. Either way, I was close to walking down the road with stockings appearing from under my trouser leg.

Fortunately, there's a public toilet about half-way home, so I thought I'd pop in and sort the stockings out. With my usual luck, they turned out to be closed on a Sunday. Damn! Then it hit me. I'll pop into the department store on the high street. It was on my way and by this time, the stockings were closer to my knees that my thighs. I managed to get to the department store without them falling further. Disaster! That was closed as well.

What was I going to do? I had about another 10 minute walk and the stockings were on my knees and felt like they wanted to fall further. I continued home, hoping that they wouldn't fall further. If they did, I was screwed. I share a house with a woman and her daughter and if any of the neighbours saw me, it would get back and cause me a world of problems.

Fortunately, they didn't fall any further than my shins and I made it home without my secret getting out. That was a bit close!

Note to self. Next time I want to go for a walk, make sure the stockings are attached to a garter belt :)

My Goal 1

I also thought I'd include some pictures in my Blog that show my goals, or where I wish to be in the future. To that end, here is a picture of Amy Daly, a gorgeous shemale that I wish I could be. I'll add more photos over time which I also hope will remind me of what I'm aiming for