Its that time when we reflect on the past year and look forward to the next so I thought i'd share some thoughts.
So what can I say has happened over the past year? I found and lost an online relationship. Although, on reflection, that relationship was doomed from the start, there are still times I miss her. I hope she's doing well and is happy.
I started off the year feeling very low and not really knowing the reason. I'm still low but believe I know the cause. Unfortunately the fix is not easy but for the first time in my life I can say that I believe I want a special someone in my life. Sad that I spent my first 40 years denying myself any fun, but need to move on and try to fiz it.
I dont know if i'll ever find someone to spend the night and more with as I am not an island and others I care about would be affected if it was to happen. Mind you, if I went out at night with the intention of returning with a partner, a fly-on-the-wall would be watching a car crash of epic proportions. So i've gotta take baby steps just to get out my front door first!
So Resolution 1: i'm 2 stone overweight, and the gym scares the hell out of me. So i'm going to do a lot more walking, take a very long route home every day. Eventually, maybe, i'll join a gym but that'll be later in the year.
Resolution 2: I need to go out more. I'm a hermit with no friends outside of the house (unless you count g+ :) ). so earlier in the year I saw the council run group guitar lessons so i'll find it again and join up.
So that's my plan. Hopefully it's achievable. My theory is that if I can lose some weight and learn to socialise, maybe, just maybe, that dream of finding a partner will be a litte closer.
If anyone has any suggestions/recommendations or whatever, please drop me a line.